I’ve killed you a million times in my mind.
You’ve returned full force each time.
The shadow to the glow I’ve grown to love.
I push, I pull, I wrestle, and shove.
Escalating charges, putting on my gloves.
As below so above.
You crawl from my depths and follow me shapeshifting.
Reminding me of all the places I’ve been unwilling.
And so I try to close my eyes,
Only to realize I’m living a lie.
I’m beginning to see you are as much a part of me
As the reflection staring back at me.
Who are we? Who can I be without you but nothing?
I am only a shallow version without the depth you convey.
My shadow walks with me daily. It’s with it I fight.
If not for running from it, I might have overstayed my darkest night.
Two halves. Two sides. Two ends out of sight.
They are opposing elements competing for the limelight.
I welcome both to comply, make this right.
Come into balance within, comply.
Complete me, please, don’t defy.
I accept you equally together unit.
As my light embraces its shadow, my being ignites.